Joy

The presents under the tree don't excite me
Christmas feels subdue
I feel no pain for I can see
My joy is because of you
There's nothing I can get from Saint Nick
My wishes are all complete
To get you I must have been slick
To score my special Christmas treat
Words cannot describe my love dear
I truly do love you
Losing you is my greatest fear
And if I did I would be blue
The only thing to make my Christmas Day
Is a simple "I love you" for your tender lips to say.

Confusion

Yes, no, maybe so
Just be my friend
Just take it slow
Or just let it end
My heart made up its mind
It is set in its resolution
For our situation we must find
A mutual solution
But if friends only is your heart's desire
And love is not in fashion
My heart with the burning fire
Will break with an overload of passion
But if your heart's desire is love
Then my heart will know you are truly sent from above.

Empty

The suffocating silence
Drowns my very soul
I am trapped by this fence
That keeps me from being whole

Through my thoughts I comb
There’s a pounding in my head
I wish to go home
I wish I was dead

Life won’t cut me loose
There’s no light
So I tie myself this noose
To slip into the cold black night

To emptiness I dedicate this refrain
My lifeless corpse is all that will remain.

Am I Still Alive?

I sit up at night

I can't sleep at all

Wishing my sight

Would behold your call

The meaning of life

Is a cold depressing state

Full of angst and strife

And dark black hate

I can't feel a thing

But the bite of the bullet

The phone will never ring

So the trigger, I must pull it

What is the sight that will give me hope?

My cold dead body swinging from a rope.

Take

Please take me whole

And never let us part

Take my soul

You already have my heart

Every second without you is pain

Without you, I hurt

I long to kiss you as the gentle rain

Slowly soaks the dirt

Every love song reminds me of you

Every pain song, these moments without

If you left me dear I would be blue

Because you give me emotional clout

With my arms around your hips

I long to kiss your gentle lips.

Jealousy

You say you want me

But actions speak louder than words

Before you have set me free

Like the wings of the birds

I see you with another

He touches you in ways I'm not allowed

Do you wish he was your lover

And I was one in the crowd?

My heart breaks at the prospect

Of saying goodbye to you

My heart would be wrecked

Broken battered and blue

Even though my heart you already dismissed

My lips still wish we had kissed.

Safe

I placed my heart in your hands

Still beating strong and true

And over time I met your demands

Because I did love you

But now I get it back

All broken beat and battered

Handed to me in a grungy sack

Because it has shattered

So I hide the pain in another's embrace

For there I feel I'm safe

So I might heal at a quicker pace

And my heart, it will not chafe

No one could have stopped this mess,

That seductress in a black and white dress.

Whole

My life has been broken

With happiness just fleeting

In my tears my heart has been soaked in

I wanted it to stop beating

But now my love you've made me whole

And taken away my pain

You've filled this tear in my soul

And made me feel sane

I used to see the world as mean

And want it all to go away

But you've filled my world world with a beautiful sheen

And made it all okay

My love for you is real and true

Holding you is all I want to do.

Broken: a poem/letter

My heart was yours

Now it is broken

It has sunk floors and floors

At the words you have spoken

You were my dear

Mi amor sincereto

How I longed to hold you near

But on that you placed a veto

My life is barren and bleak

As I silently scream your name

Through my mind you do streak

On you I place no blame

And as this letter comes to an end

All the love in my heart I do send.